contacting me in Haiti

Thursday, July 15, 2010
Hey everyone!

Looks like the best way to reach me is through text messages. I have my same cell phone number. It's free for me to receive and $.10 to reply, but I can reply for free from 706-623-2515. So that's me if you receive a text from that number.

My skype name is jezkascott and I also have a magicjack so making phone calls is no problem. If you need to talk to me just text and I'll call you back as soon as I can!

email is easy too jezkascott@gmail.com

I love and will miss you all!
Fly out tomorrow at 6:50am

Thanks for all the prayers, they mean more than you know!

~ Jess

"the only real nation is humanity"

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Yesterday I returned from a few days at the beach with some of my dearest friends. While there one of my goals was to start and finish one of the books my brother gave me for my birthday in June. I'm proud to say I did it. I had asked him to give me some books on Haiti, whether that meant politics, culture, religion, medicine or really anything...as long as they weren't too long or too boring. I'm not sure whether he did research or just has a nack for picking books (I suspect both) but the one I've completed was unbelievable.

It's called Mountains Beyond Mountains which is a Haitian proverb basically meaning that there are always going to be more hurdles even when you've overcome what is in front of you. The book is a biography about Dr. Paul Farmer (DP) by Tracey Kidder (TK). Dr Farmer is an infectious disease physican who graduated from Duke, then Harvard and spend the majority of his time (even while enrolled in classes) taking care of Tuberculosis and HIV patients in Haiti. He left for Haiti at age 23 and almost singlehandedly started the organization Partners in Health (along with an 18 year old British girl) which is now serving in Boston, Haiti, Peru, Rwanda, Russia, Malawi, Burundi, Mexico and Guatemala.

Crazy thing too is that I applied for a job with Partners in Health a couple months ago (that I was completely unqualified for) knowing very little about them, except their renown work in ID. Now I think I could easily work for them forever if the job ever presented itself.

I can't really recommend the book to non-medical personnel as there were pages filled with treatments for multi-drug-resistent-tuberculosis and analysis on HIV medications (which I found intriguing). But if you think you can skim through those pages then I'm sure you'd find the book a phenomenal read.

I'd like to share some of my favorite quotes...


The world is full of miserable places. One way of living comfortably is not to think about them or, when you do, to send money. ~ DP

...wild screams erupted from the child. "She's crying, 'It hurts, I'm hungry.' Can you believe it? Only in Haiti would a child cry out that she's hungry during a spinal tap." ~TK

Giving people medicine for TB and not giving them food is like washing your hands and drying them in the dirt. ~Haitian public health worker

Just when you thought you had the hang of [DP's] worldview he'd surprise you. He had problems with groups that on the surface would have seemed like allies, that were allies in fact, with for example what he called "WL's" or white liberals, some of whose most influential spokespeople were black and prosperous. 'I love WL's, love 'em to death. They're on our side,' he had told me. 'But WL's think all the world's problems can be fixed without any cost to themselves. We don't believe that. There's a lot to be said for sacrifice, remorse, even pity. It's what separates us from roaches.' ~TK

You want to see where Christ crucified abides today? Go to where the poor are suffering and fighting back, and that's where He is. ~DP

The fact that any sort of religious faith was so disdained at Harvard and so important to the poor- not just in Haiti but elsewhere, too- made me even more convinced that faith must be something good. ~DP

spoken to DP's associate...why do you call your patients poor people? They don't call themselves poor people!? "Ok, how about soon-dead people?"

The goofiness of radicals thinking they have to dress in Guatemalam peasant clothes. The poor don't want you to look like them. They want you to dress in a suit and go get them food and water. ~DP

I remember signing the oath to assist the patient and do him no harm. I don't really remember signing that I would do it in a cost-effective way. ~ DP (DP's team spent $18,000 flying an eleven year old boy from a village in Haiti to Boston for treatment. The patient was untreatable even in Boston. Farmer had no regrets).

The problem is, if I don't work this hard. Someone will die who doesn't have to. ~DP

....he murmured something about how much could be done in Haiti if only he could get his hands on the money that the first world spent on pet grooming.~TK

All the great religious traditions of the world say, Love thy neighbor as thyself. My answer is, I'm sorry, I can't, but I'm gonna keep on trying. ~DP

All too often international aid organizations weaken the societies they are supposed to help. Often they rely almost entirely on professionals from the world's wealthiest countries, and they fail to make their projects indigenous. This all but guarentees that their projects will neither grow nor last. PIH is different. The organization now has on the order of 6,500 employees. The overwhelming majority come from the impoverished countries where PIH is working. Fewer than one hundred of the employees come from the United States. ~TK

There is all the difference in the world between witnessing misery and witnessing people at work trying to relieve misery. ~TK

I wish I could explain all the ways this book has inspired, challenged, moved and given me hope. I'm not sure I can. But the fear that was inside to me, the freak out moments that I've had the last three weeks when all the sudden I'll stop while pumping gas or walking in Walmart and all I think is, WHAT THE H-E-double-hockey sticks am I doing?!?!?! are gone.

I'm no Paul Farmer but I can give a lot of time towards relieving someone's misery.

goodbye Mac-town!

Monday, June 28, 2010




STICU women, NICU men, and Jennie...my preceptor a few years ago that taught me everything I know!

moving forward

Saturday, June 26, 2010
Yesterday was my last shift at the Medical Center of Central Georgia. It's pretty strange to think that I have worked there in some form of fashion since January of 2005! That place has taught me so much and really has some of the most amazing nurses, surgeons and residents you will ever meet. Overall...what a joy it has been.

The leave for Haiti is planned for the 16th of July, though this won't be official until I buy my ticket and I received an email yesterday that the 19th might be a better transition day for the hospital. I am now thoroughly excited, although there are some disappointments, like the lack of someone going with me that have been emotional setbacks.

I have NEVER EVER understood what it means to be misunderstood by the world (John 15) until I began telling people that I was quitting my job to go work [for free] in Port-au-Prince. I swear people think I am insane! Some of the responses have caused me real anger which quickly turns to pity. We are so blessed and we have absolutely no idea. People care more about the animals dying in the gulf (not that i don't hate this) than the thousands of orphans dying in tent cities. (And they don't really care about the animals because all they do is yell at the tv and slander BP). People also don't understand why you would ever use your skills and education to benefit someone else without benefiting (financially) yourself. It's really quite appalling.

I was crying laughing yesterday while my good friend explained in great detail the skills it takes to squat over a public toilet so that you don't have to touch the seat....wow, I told her. Please don't come see me in Haiti. You can't even flush the toilet paper. Don't even get me started on picky eaters...or scheduled manicures. And no, it's not wrong. But let's please evaluate.

It has, however, been encouraging to see Christians come out of the woodworks the last few weeks. Many men and women who I've never had a spiritual conversation with in my entire five years at the Med have said unbelievable words of wisdom and prayer for me. I had knots in my stomach all day yesterday as I worked, wondering what in the world I am doing. But every time I had doubts in my head someone would approach me, hug me, and tell me that they were inspired and praying. My incredible friends Shelby and Torri put a dinner together for me last night and I was able to say goodbye to some of the people who have meant the most to me in the last 2 years in the ICU. THANK YOU!

The U-haul is scheduled for Tuesday and my material possessions will be moved to my parent's basement. I sorta wish I could free myself of all of them, but parental wisdom is limiting me.

I still don't have a decision about the car. So prayers and advice are much desired. This is one of those situations where i really just want someone to tell me what to do. And unfortunately I think I have to decide for myself.

Stay tuned for more updates. And thank you Macon, for two and a half HOT, creative, educational, and challenging years!

a brief update

Thursday, June 3, 2010
I have no idea how many people are still reading this. But here is a short update as of today.

Since returning from Haiti on May 19th I have been praying about returning and seeking out opportunities to live and work in Port-au-Prince for awhile. Yesterday I heard from the staff of Loma Linda University/Medical Center the organization in charge of sending all volunteers to the Adventist Hospital in Port-au-Prince and they are very interested in sending me! They will officially discuss my application on Friday (yes, tomorrow). And let me know more details.

The things I know now are...

#1 I have to sell my 2008 Altima Coupe that I bought in October.

#2 I have to raise about $500/month (I am not planning on officially sending out support letters due to this economy and people who have already expressed interest. But if YOU'RE interested please email me!

#3 I really don't want to go alone and there are a couple women who are praying about going with me. I won't say their names as they have been praying for less than 24 hours, but please pray that God will provide someone.

That's all for now.

Thanks for reading!